Yesterday, I took a personal day from work. I’m anxiously awaiting the results from my recent ultrasound and have been in a tearful funk because of it. I am doing much better today, thanks to the support of friends and loved ones, but today’s quote is inspired by my letting go and breaking down.
One of my favorite childhood authors, C.S. Lewis, once wrote,
“Crying is all right in its way while it lasts. But you have to stop sooner or later, and then you still have to decide what to do.” ~from The Silver Chair
I remember as a child my mother reading the Chronicles of Narnia books to us before bed. The Voyage of the Dawn Treader is my favorite…but while searching for a quote about crying, I stumbled across this one and knew I had to use it.
I took my day yesterday to cry, rest, reflect, snuggle the cat, watch bad TV, and cry some more. I let it all go. And today, I’m more focused and able to wait patiently for the results. There is nothing I can do to speed up the results, nothing I can do to time travel to 11 days from now to talk to my doctor, nothing I can do…and stressing about it won’t make it any better. So I’m releasing it. But I am grateful I took yesterday off to purge. And am ever-grateful for my friends and family who supported me through yesterday. You know who you are.
If you’re going through some crap, too, remember : it’s okay to cry. But at some point, try to dry those eyes and move forward. Even if it’s one tiny step at a time, even if you need to hold someone’s hand while doing it.