The last Friday of September. Already. Do you have any fun plans for October??
Today’s quote is inspired by one of my local EndoWarriors, Heidi. She’s had a rough past few months, but has taken charge and is advocating for answers, has pushed for multiple doctor’s appointments with numerous specialists, and is literally charging through the muck that’s trying to hold her down.
It’s not all been strength and positivity (how can it be??), but yet she continues to embrace those around her, ask for help, and push on.
She’s a god-damn inspiration.
“Whenever you find yourself doubting how far you can go, just remember how far you have come. Remember everything you faced, all the battles you have won, and all the fears you have overcome.” ~Unknown
I’m so proud of her, and grateful to have her in my life.
May we all be inspired to continue to smash forward, crush those doubts and fears, and realize we’re not alone in whatever we may be going through.
Another week has flown by. And here we are: Friday.
My favorite t-shirt from several years ago read, “Be the reason someone smiles today.” I mourn the loss of that shirt – I wore it ’til it just couldn’t be worn anymore. But it’s been on my mind lately, which has inspired today’s quote:
“Believe me. Your hardship, tears and sorrows you are facing now are the training of your spirit. The strength you learn from there brings you more love and smiles in your future. Wherever you are, love all the people around you like your family. then you are not alone anymore.” ― Hiroko Sakai
Whatever you may be enduring, know that it is not everlasting. And know that you are not alone. Reach out to friends, family, strangers, loved ones, people you trust, or even a complete stranger. It will fade. And you will find the strength to smile.
And if you would like, email me. I’m always here for you.
Blogs I Updated This Week:
Endometriosis & the Heart: added a 2019 study of a 28-year-old woman who complained of chest pains and collapsed. Turns out she had Endometriosis along her pericardial lining.
Happy Friday. September is already half-way over. Already!
This week has been full of ups and downs: I came down with a case of what I suspect is bronchitis, followed by laryngitis. I had a follow-up appointment with my surgeon to discuss my ultrasound results. I’m not sleeping well due to said bronchitis and accompanying coughing fits. I’ve discovered the healing power of humidifiers! And tomorrow a few of us Bloomin’ Uterus gals are getting together at a winery to honor our shared surgeon and his office staff.
A busy week indeed. I’m so looking forward to tomorrow. I don’t know if I’ll be able to speak, but I cannot wait to celebrate and honor San Diego Women’s Health and Dr. Kurtulus.
But for today? Today’s quote goes out to all you chronic-illness warriors (whatever it may be):
“Pain diminishes us, and it is so important to remember, in the midst of pain and everything that pain takes from you, that still … you are enough. You are enough just as you are. You are worthy of love and kindness. You are enough. And you have enough.” ― Steve Leder, More Beautiful Than Before: How Suffering Transforms Us
Never forget that you will endure, you will flourish, and you are still beautiful.
Much love to you. Have a wonderful weekend and I hope to be able to blog very soon.
So last Thursday I had another pelvic ultrasound (both transvaginal and the traditional techniques).
The ultrasound tech noted that the cyst on my right ovary appeared to have ruptured and there was evidence of fluid around the ovary. There were also a series of very tiny cysts on the right ovary, which she commented was normal.
The left ovary still had a cyst on it, and it had nearly doubled in size since July. It’s now 2.3 cm (a little under 1-inch). What appeared previously to be an endometrioma now appeared to be a simple, non-complex cyst.
So, I stowed that information away for a few days until I met with my gynecologist/surgeon yesterday. And it was a good meeting.
He agreed with the ultrasound tech:
The cyst on the right ovary appeared to have ruptured. If it was an endometrioma, there’s the possibility that it’s spread endo-goo around my pelvic cavity. If it was a simple or hemorrhagic cyst, the fluid around my ovary is just normal goo.
The cyst on the left ovary does, in fact, appear to be a simple cyst. NOT an endometrioma as previously suspected!
The ongoing suspicion of Adenomyosis remains.
There’s no way of knowing if Endometriosis is back, or if the cyst that ruptured was an endometrioma, or the cyst that remains is an endometrioma or a simple cyst. The only way to know for sure is to operate. And neither my surgeon nor I feel it’s necessary at this time. So, his advice?
Simply wait. Don’t dwell on the fact that it may or may not be. Thinking about it won’t solve anything. Hold onto the hope that they were both simple cysts. And continue to monitor any symptoms.
I also took some time to talk about my uber-painful period day in late August. He’s not opposed to filling a painkiller prescription for me (yay!), but I’ve asked that we wait to see what happens with my next period.
We’re both in good spirits over the news. And I go back in two months for another pelvic ultrasound to see what my ovaries are up to.
August has ended. The bulk of the month went well, except for one day: Day Two of my period.
A week before before my period began, I had a strange instance of severe pain (8 out of 10) in my lower left abs. It only lasted for a few seconds, though. Day one of my period came with mild abdominal cramping (0-2 out of 10). Day Two was such a painful day that I used my last paid sick day at work, and had to pop 2 Naproxen and 1 Tylenol throughout the day. Luckily, it was just one day. And then the rest of my period went on without a single cramp.
I have my next scheduled transvaginal ultrasound to check on the status of my bilateral endometriomas this Thursday. And I’ll meet with Dr. Kurtulus to discuss the findings early next week.
As usual, I had my standard staple, belly button, and left lower gut discomfort if/when I ate too much. And I still really need to remember to have just one drink; no more than two if I’m enjoying it with friends.
If you’d like to review my journal of food, drink, pain, and poop, here’s the slideshow:
And if you’re intrigued enough to review my poop chart, here ya go: