Feel Good Friday

Jupiter in night sky

Oh man, it’s been a while since I’ve posted one of these! I had a few weeks off of work for the holidays and man I enjoyed the R&R. But I do apologize for my lack of Feel Good Fridays.

I don’t know about you, but I’ve had several painful days between now and last August. I fear my Endo is back, or maybe it’s something as simple as adhesions, but damn it hurt. And my partner has had to watch me as I suffer, which hurts me even more. I’ve tried to hold onto the plan that I’ll be having another surgery this year to look for new lesions and hopefully have that hysterectomy (to manage the suspected Adenomyosis and period cramps). I’ve tried to keep positive and strong. But some days I failed.

And I’ve faced the hopelessness of not having medications that deal well with my pain. Naproxen is an NSAID that sometimes doesn’t work. Heating pads, ice packs, herbal pain sprays, etc. sometimes don’t work. I cannot afford regular acupuncture, pelvic floor therapy, massage, or other holistic treatments. I’ve grown sad during the painful days, at my lack of control, just succumbing to the pain. I’ve cried at appointments, had long talks with the husband, and shared with close friends. I don’t really hate my body or this disease, but I had grown to hate my inability to fight it.

But this week I had a consultation with my pain management doctor and after a very lengthy meeting, discussion, review of symptoms, and a heart-to-heart, he graciously agreed to fill a very small prescription for Tramadol: the one pill that doesn’t make me loopy or sick and does handle my high-pain days. And we’ll be scheduling nerve block injections once my insurance approves them.

I wanted to cry and hug that man. I mean, I didn’t do either because we’d just met. I was severely overwhelmed with relief. And hope. And the ability to go to work, function, and wade my way through the coming pain-days. Light at the end of the tunnel. Surgery will be coming, but I will now be able to push through the days before then.

So I wanted to take a moment to remind you…and myself:

In the darkest days, when you feel alone and hopeless, try to find a small speck of light to cling to. Reach out and find a hand to hold. Mine is always here if you need it. We will make it through this darkness together.

Just a little spark of hope can ignite so much life. I love you guys. Thank you for being here with me on my Journey, and for holding my hand and walking me through, too. May I always be there for you.

Feel Good Fridays

Gold star

Friday, the 20th! Where’s the month going?

Every week I look back and lament at how little blogging I have been doing. But have to remind myself that life has been crazy-busy, and it’s okay. When I have time, I will.

So that little self-appreciating, “it’s okay” mentality spurred today’s Feel Good quote:

“At the end of the day, remind yourself that you did the best you could today, and that is good enough.”
― Lori Deschene

Whatever it is you may be judging yourself for today, judge yourself a little less. It’s okay. You did the best you could. And you (we) can always try again. This is our lives; not a competition. Embrace your abilities (and disabilities) and know that today was good enough.

Happy holidays, my loves.

~Lisa

Feel Good Fridays

Woman sitting on pedestal looking out at the ocean

Happy Friday!

Today’s quote cannot be said enough! Please read it, read it again, and read it one more time.

“Respect, Love, and Value yourself. Always remember to be good to yourself by taking care of yourself. Make yourself a priority and know that it’s okay. Don’t feel guilty for loving yourself, first! You’re just as important as anybody else.”
― Stephanie Lahart

You ALWAYS need to value yourself, take care of yourself, feel free to say “no” to an event if you’re not feeling well, and honor your body. Inside and out.

Much love to you!

Lisa

Feel Good Fridays

Message in a bottle
Message in a Bottle Sea” by Antonios Ntoumas

Happy Friday! The end of the week (another one?!)! I hope that you’re all able to have a wonderful and fulfilling weekend.

My husband and I have been attending twice-a-week yoga classes through a local community college, and it’s been great. This past Tuesday, we did our first guided meditation in the class: find yourself in your favorite natural setting. Of course, I was in the mountains, propped on a log sitting in front of a campfire at dusk. Then our instructor threw in a body of water nearby, so I walked toward a lake. Laying on the shores was a bottle with a message inside. I popped open the bottle, pulled out the message, and unfurled it.

It was a message to me, from me.

And it was four words, written in incredible, beautiful calligraphy (which I don’t do, by the way):

“Everything will be okay.”

I took a moment to soak that in, then opened my eyes in the darkened classroom and just let the words wash over me. Everything: finances, my Endo, the colon polyp biopsy, next year’s possible surgery. Everything. Everything will be okay.

It was weird: crying silently in a blackened room with six other people laying down nearby on their respective yoga mats, oblivious to what was going on in my head. I can’t even explain the relief that flooded over my being. I wiped my tears, took a few deep breaths, and closed my eyes.

And that mantra has been something I’ve now whispered to myself every day since.

May it work it’s way into your thoughts today, too.

Much love, Lisa.

Feel Good Fridays!

Welcome to November 1st. There’s only 61 days left in 2019. And I feel like this year has just flown by.

I struggled to find a quote today. Everything I read fell flat in my heart. So, I reached to my co-worker, Shaldon, and asked if he had a favorite inspiring quote. He had shared this one on his Facebook page today…and I loved it…and I borrowed it for our blog.

No, it’s not Shaldon’s sloppy seconds. It’s sharing! And sharing means caring!

Damned if I do, damned if I don't...so damnit I will!

This one goes out to those EndoWarriors who need a cheat day and crave that bite of chocolate ice cream, or that cup o’joe with whipped cream, or those nightshades, or how about some cheeeeeese.

It’s okay to allow yourself a moment of happiness. Some may call it weakness, but I call it happiness. Don’t let the “Endo Diet” dictate your every day. But, do understand, that it may cause you some pain or symptoms to worsen.

Many of us don’t feel any difference following strict meal plans. Follow your heart. Your gut. Your instincts. And listen to your body.

But don’t be afraid to cheat every once in a while.

But the same goes for self-care. DO find time for yourself, to breathe, to meditate, to reflect, to honor your body, to say “no”, to embrace the need to sit back and do nothing but hold your heating pad and cry.

Do whatever you need to do. At this moment. Right now.

I wish I could end our suffering.

Love, Lisa

Feel Good Fridays

Screenshot of Facebook memories from October 18, 2010: is grateful for the strength of friends

Good morning! And I hope it is a good morning for you. Well, it’s Friday! Another week has fled. Time flies far too fast. October is more than halfway over.

Today’s quote is brought to you by Facebook Memories and is pictured above.

Nine years ago, I was going through a very rough time. The exact details? Oh, I don’t recall, but it was likely heartache-related. The posts around that same time were filled with self-doubt and judgment. And even today, I am still oh so grateful for the strength of friends. Sometimes you just can’t go it alone.

But whatever you are going through, you aren’t alone. Friends, loved ones, family, and extended family: we are all here for you. Whatever your need may be.

Have a BEAUTIFUL weekend! And, remember, if you ever need me I’m right here for you.

Feel Good Fridays!

Text reads The Sun will come up, the seasons will change

So, here we are at another Friday.

I haven’t written a new blog piece in so long that I feel like a slacker. I’ve got many, many, many drafts going, research looming, events to plan, and life to live – but I promise a new one will be coming soon.

I didn’t realize how much it was bothering me until I read today’s quote, which hit me like a punch in the gut.

“You can do this, and if you can’t do it today, you’ll do it tomorrow. You are not a failure.”
― Alisha Rai, Wrong to Need You

Whatever…and I mean WHATEVER…it is that is dragging you down because you haven’t (or can’t) do it yet, embrace the thought that there will come a time that you will be able to. Whatever it is. Don’t let it be a personal reflection of who you are. hang in there. Stand strong. You aren’t a failure. Your body isn’t a failure. Your life isn’t a failure. Persevere.

And please, always remember, to set aside some time to focus on your own well-being, whether it be mental or physical. Even if it’s just 5-10 minutes of “Me” time. Do it.

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. And remember just how wonderful and special you truly are.

Love, Lisa

Feel Good Fridays

A clock about to strike midnight

If we only had a bit more kindness in the world, could you imagine how we would be?

I stumbled across this quote today and immediately fell in love. Although not in line with my usual Feel Good Friday’s quotes, I wanted to share it with you guys:

“Beginning today, treat everyone you meet as if they were going to be dead by midnight. Extend to them all the care, kindness and understanding you can muster, and do it with no thought of any reward. Your life will never be the same again.” ~Og Mandino

I absolutely would LOVE to see what the world would become if we could all just do this.

I hope you have a great weekend. And I hope you’re doing well.

Love, Lisa

Feel Good Fridays

Sign that reads "Keep Going"

The last Friday of September. Already. Do you have any fun plans for October??

Today’s quote is inspired by one of my local EndoWarriors, Heidi. She’s had a rough past few months, but has taken charge and is advocating for answers, has pushed for multiple doctor’s appointments with numerous specialists, and is literally charging through the muck that’s trying to hold her down.

It’s not all been strength and positivity (how can it be??), but yet she continues to embrace those around her, ask for help, and push on.

She’s a god-damn inspiration.

“Whenever you find yourself doubting how far you can go, just remember how far you have come. Remember everything you faced, all the battles you have won, and all the fears you have overcome.” ~Unknown

I’m so proud of her, and grateful to have her in my life.

May we all be inspired to continue to smash forward, crush those doubts and fears, and realize we’re not alone in whatever we may be going through.

Have a wonderful weekend. Much love, Lisa.