Feel Good Fridays

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Happy Friday! I hope you’re doing well. And if you’re not, I want you to know that you CAN get through this. We’re all here for you.

Today’s quote hit me in The Feels. It’s you. And I. And all of us.

“Heroes didn’t leap tall buildings or stop bullets with an outstretched hand; they didn’t wear boots and capes. They bled, and they bruised, and their superpowers were as simple as listening, or loving. Heroes were ordinary people who knew that even if their own lives were impossibly knotted, they could untangle someone else’s. And maybe that one act could lead someone to rescue you right back.”

― Jodi Picoult, Second Glance

To those of you who have personally “unwound my knots” you truly are my heroes. And it’s my pleasure and honor to help others unwind theirs.

Much love to you.

Lisa

Feel Good Fridays!

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Happy end of the week. Happy nearly-the-end of February! And HAPPY FEEL GOOD FRIDAYS!

Today’s quote I snagged out of a book of quotations my mom bought me:

“There is in every true woman’s heart a spark of heavenly fire, which lies dormant in the broad daylight of prosperity, but which kindles up and beams and blazes in the dark hour of adversity.” ~Washington Iriving

Now I’d like to alter that a bit and open it up to all humanity; not just womenfolk. We all have that ability to “kindle up” and “beam” and “blaze.”

And if you’re going through some darkness, may your fire burn brightly and you make it through the other side. ❤

Feel Good Fridays

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Good morning and happy Friday!

Today’s quote goes out to all you readers who are learning to accept things that may be a bit harder to swallow. But swallow it we can!

I would like to say “everything will be okay,” but (as you know) that’s a promise nobody can keep. So I found this beautiful half-way point.

“Most things will be okay eventually, but not everything will be. Sometimes you’ll put up a good fight and lose. Sometimes you’ll hold on really hard and realize there is no choice but to let go. Acceptance is a small, quiet room.”

― Cheryl Strayed, Tiny Beautiful Things: Advice on Love and Life from Dear Sugar

Some news is hard to hear. Even if you’ve prepped yourself for it.

Sometimes you do everything you possibly can to control a situation (or your body and health) and still have to relinquish to facts you don’t want to admit.

And sometimes all we can do is take a deep breath and move forward.

And that’s okay. Just know that you’re not doing it alone. Ever.

Much love to you, Readers, and have a beautiful weekend. And if you need me, let me know.

Feel Good Fridays

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Hello my lovely readers! I hope you’re all doing well.

Today’s Feel Good Fridays is a selfish one: I found it for me. And I want to share it with you. May it strike a chord with you as it did me.

“She is of the strangest beauty and the darkest courage, and when she walks with intent the earth trembles beneath her feet.”
― Nicole Lyons, Hush

I had another ultrasound yesterday because of my pelvic pain and I’ve mixed emotions. I plan on blogging about what I’m going through after my doctor’s appointment that I have next Tuesday. In the meantime: have courage. In all things. I know that there is something amiss inside my body; the pain tells me as much. I’ve had five pelvic ultrasounds in the last 11 months. We’ve been monitoring cysts on both ovaries. My pain has been off-and-on during the last six of those months and getting progressively worse. In my October ultrasound, the cysts were found to be shrinking, which I thought odd because my pain was doing the opposite.

Yesterday’s ultrasound yielded results that supported my suspicions: something is definitely going on. And Tuesday I will talk with my doctor and surgeon, Dr. Mel Kurtulus, to discuss the report and a plan. And then I’ll update you!

Although I want to curl into a ball on the floor and cry, I won’t. Not yet. I need to mentally steel myself for Surgery No. 5 in six years. Even if it finds nothing amiss: I need to go in and make sure. And I need to be ready to watch my husband, mother, and best friends go through the anguish of another surgery with me. I know it’s hard on them, too.

I don’t despise the disease. It has brought me closer to each of you, introduced me to some incredibly strong people, and given me something to fight for. But moments like these are incredibly difficult.

So, stand tall, embrace that inward beauty you possess, and walk with intent. You’ve got this.

I’ve got this.

Feel Good Fridays

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Good morning, Readers! And happy Friday!

We’re well on our way through February, already, and I hope that it is treating you well.

Today’s quote is to remind you; yes, you, that YOU can handle it. Whatever it is, I know you can. Need help? Ask for it. Afraid you can’t? You can.

“Knowledge is power: You hear it all the time but knowledge is not power. It’s only potential power. It only becomes power when we apply it and use it.

Somebody who reads a book and doesn’t apply it, they’re at no advantage over someone who’s illiterate.

None of it works unless YOU work. We have to do our part. If knowing is half the battle, action is the second half of the battle.”

― Jim Kwik

Specifically, this goes out to those battling to achieve the healthcare you need. Is your physician telling you your pain is all in your head? That you should try *this* treatment or *that*? Or that the treatment your requesting is subpar?

You know your body. You know your symptoms. You’ve done your research on your health and disease. Present that information to your physician an talk about it. Bring print-outs of studies that support your position. Don’t want to take a medication due to side-effects? Bring a print-out of the FDA’s Drug Database Adverse Side Effects search. Can’t enunciate where your pain is in your body? Keep track of it on a pain journal and print that out.

Arm yourself with tangible, hands-on evidence that you can bring with you. And if they still won’t help you? Look elsewhere.

Nearly every day I get emails from women (or their families) seeking proper care and how to fight for what they need.

Educate yourself, but more importantly, ADVOCATE for yourself. Push for the care you need. It’s out there. ❤

Have a wonderful weekend. And if you ever need to talk, I’m right here.

Love, Lisa

PS – to those who helped me recently push for what I needed as well, thank you.

Feel Good Fridays

Photo of people riding a roller coaster, circa 1961
“Giant Roller Coaster” (1961) courtesy of Vancouver Public Library

January ends today! We’re already one full month into 2020. Where did the time go? How was your first month of this new year? Ups? Downs? Struggles? Victories?

Today’s quote is exactly that: full of ups and downs and a bit of encouragement.

“My life is a roller coaster on golden wheels; IT IS NEVER GOING TO BE PERFECT but I am glad for the perfect moments”
― Daniel Derrick Mwesigye

May your weekend be wonderful. And if it isn’t, and you need someone to talk to, reach out to me. I’m here for you. ❤ And may you find those moments of peace and perfection in your life.

Love, Lisa

PS: I’m in LOVE with today’s photo. The man in the front row compared to the woman in the 4th row speaks volumes. ❤ Ups and downs, indeed!

Blogs I updated this week:

Bladder & Endometriosis – added an Oct. 2019 study of a woman who complained of painful, burning pee. All of her lab tests were normal. An ultrasound and MRI found a mass inside her bladder. Upon removal, it was confirmed as bladder endometrioma.

Endometriosis & The Appendix – added a Nov. 2019 study of a 33-year-old woman who had right-sided pain, nausea, vomiting, and loose stools. Another case of Endometriosis on the appendix!

Inguinal Hernial & Endometriosis – added a Nov. 2019 study of a woman with a suspected inguinal hernia, femoral hernia, or enlarged lymph node. Of course, it was Endometriosis. A second November 2019 study followed a 47-year-old runner with a lump on the right side of her mons pubis that had been painful for six months. I also added a Dec. 2019 study of a 41-year-old woman who complained of a mass near her right inguinal region. Was it a tumor? A recurrent hernia from four years prior? Nope. It was a mass of Endometriosis.

Feel Good Friday

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Oh man, it’s been a while since I’ve posted one of these! I had a few weeks off of work for the holidays and man I enjoyed the R&R. But I do apologize for my lack of Feel Good Fridays.

I don’t know about you, but I’ve had several painful days between now and last August. I fear my Endo is back, or maybe it’s something as simple as adhesions, but damn it hurt. And my partner has had to watch me as I suffer, which hurts me even more. I’ve tried to hold onto the plan that I’ll be having another surgery this year to look for new lesions and hopefully have that hysterectomy (to manage the suspected Adenomyosis and period cramps). I’ve tried to keep positive and strong. But some days I failed.

And I’ve faced the hopelessness of not having medications that deal well with my pain. Naproxen is an NSAID that sometimes doesn’t work. Heating pads, ice packs, herbal pain sprays, etc. sometimes don’t work. I cannot afford regular acupuncture, pelvic floor therapy, massage, or other holistic treatments. I’ve grown sad during the painful days, at my lack of control, just succumbing to the pain. I’ve cried at appointments, had long talks with the husband, and shared with close friends. I don’t really hate my body or this disease, but I had grown to hate my inability to fight it.

But this week I had a consultation with my pain management doctor and after a very lengthy meeting, discussion, review of symptoms, and a heart-to-heart, he graciously agreed to fill a very small prescription for Tramadol: the one pill that doesn’t make me loopy or sick and does handle my high-pain days. And we’ll be scheduling nerve block injections once my insurance approves them.

I wanted to cry and hug that man. I mean, I didn’t do either because we’d just met. I was severely overwhelmed with relief. And hope. And the ability to go to work, function, and wade my way through the coming pain-days. Light at the end of the tunnel. Surgery will be coming, but I will now be able to push through the days before then.

So I wanted to take a moment to remind you…and myself:

In the darkest days, when you feel alone and hopeless, try to find a small speck of light to cling to. Reach out and find a hand to hold. Mine is always here if you need it. We will make it through this darkness together.

Just a little spark of hope can ignite so much life. I love you guys. Thank you for being here with me on my Journey, and for holding my hand and walking me through, too. May I always be there for you.

Feel Good Fridays

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Friday, the 20th! Where’s the month going?

Every week I look back and lament at how little blogging I have been doing. But have to remind myself that life has been crazy-busy, and it’s okay. When I have time, I will.

So that little self-appreciating, “it’s okay” mentality spurred today’s Feel Good quote:

“At the end of the day, remind yourself that you did the best you could today, and that is good enough.”
― Lori Deschene

Whatever it is you may be judging yourself for today, judge yourself a little less. It’s okay. You did the best you could. And you (we) can always try again. This is our lives; not a competition. Embrace your abilities (and disabilities) and know that today was good enough.

Happy holidays, my loves.

~Lisa

Feel Good Fridays

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Happy Friday!

Today’s quote cannot be said enough! Please read it, read it again, and read it one more time.

“Respect, Love, and Value yourself. Always remember to be good to yourself by taking care of yourself. Make yourself a priority and know that it’s okay. Don’t feel guilty for loving yourself, first! You’re just as important as anybody else.”
― Stephanie Lahart

You ALWAYS need to value yourself, take care of yourself, feel free to say “no” to an event if you’re not feeling well, and honor your body. Inside and out.

Much love to you!

Lisa