Feel Good Fridays

Today I am not feeling well. It’s not Endo – related, but I feel like I’ve been run over by a truck and I’m exhausted and all I want to do is stay in bed.

So I took today to stay in bed. I have very limited sick days at work, would have come to understand the value of honoring your body when you can.

And I want to remind each and every one of you to do the same. We only get one life, one body, one chance. So take care of it in any way you can.

May you have a wonderful weekend.

Much love to you.

Feel Good Friday

Jupiter in night sky

Oh man, it’s been a while since I’ve posted one of these! I had a few weeks off of work for the holidays and man I enjoyed the R&R. But I do apologize for my lack of Feel Good Fridays.

I don’t know about you, but I’ve had several painful days between now and last August. I fear my Endo is back, or maybe it’s something as simple as adhesions, but damn it hurt. And my partner has had to watch me as I suffer, which hurts me even more. I’ve tried to hold onto the plan that I’ll be having another surgery this year to look for new lesions and hopefully have that hysterectomy (to manage the suspected Adenomyosis and period cramps). I’ve tried to keep positive and strong. But some days I failed.

And I’ve faced the hopelessness of not having medications that deal well with my pain. Naproxen is an NSAID that sometimes doesn’t work. Heating pads, ice packs, herbal pain sprays, etc. sometimes don’t work. I cannot afford regular acupuncture, pelvic floor therapy, massage, or other holistic treatments. I’ve grown sad during the painful days, at my lack of control, just succumbing to the pain. I’ve cried at appointments, had long talks with the husband, and shared with close friends. I don’t really hate my body or this disease, but I had grown to hate my inability to fight it.

But this week I had a consultation with my pain management doctor and after a very lengthy meeting, discussion, review of symptoms, and a heart-to-heart, he graciously agreed to fill a very small prescription for Tramadol: the one pill that doesn’t make me loopy or sick and does handle my high-pain days. And we’ll be scheduling nerve block injections once my insurance approves them.

I wanted to cry and hug that man. I mean, I didn’t do either because we’d just met. I was severely overwhelmed with relief. And hope. And the ability to go to work, function, and wade my way through the coming pain-days. Light at the end of the tunnel. Surgery will be coming, but I will now be able to push through the days before then.

So I wanted to take a moment to remind you…and myself:

In the darkest days, when you feel alone and hopeless, try to find a small speck of light to cling to. Reach out and find a hand to hold. Mine is always here if you need it. We will make it through this darkness together.

Just a little spark of hope can ignite so much life. I love you guys. Thank you for being here with me on my Journey, and for holding my hand and walking me through, too. May I always be there for you.

Feel Good Fridays

Gold star

Friday, the 20th! Where’s the month going?

Every week I look back and lament at how little blogging I have been doing. But have to remind myself that life has been crazy-busy, and it’s okay. When I have time, I will.

So that little self-appreciating, “it’s okay” mentality spurred today’s Feel Good quote:

“At the end of the day, remind yourself that you did the best you could today, and that is good enough.”
― Lori Deschene

Whatever it is you may be judging yourself for today, judge yourself a little less. It’s okay. You did the best you could. And you (we) can always try again. This is our lives; not a competition. Embrace your abilities (and disabilities) and know that today was good enough.

Happy holidays, my loves.

~Lisa

Feel Good Fridays

Woman sitting on pedestal looking out at the ocean

Happy Friday!

Today’s quote cannot be said enough! Please read it, read it again, and read it one more time.

“Respect, Love, and Value yourself. Always remember to be good to yourself by taking care of yourself. Make yourself a priority and know that it’s okay. Don’t feel guilty for loving yourself, first! You’re just as important as anybody else.”
― Stephanie Lahart

You ALWAYS need to value yourself, take care of yourself, feel free to say “no” to an event if you’re not feeling well, and honor your body. Inside and out.

Much love to you!

Lisa

Feel Good Fridays

Stairs

It’s FRIDAY!

It’s DECEMBER! What?!? ALREADY?

Today’s quote is brought to you by Erin…a good friend of mine who’s been there for me during my Journey.

“Don’t let the entire staircase overwhelm you. Just focus on that first step. One step at a time…”

Literally, take it one step at a time, one day at a time, one small victory at a time, or one battle at a time. And know that you’re never alone. We can grace these stairs together.

Love, Lisa

Feel Good Fridays

Happy Friday, my lovelies!

May you find inspiration to keep going, and may today’s quote help you get there!

“Being strong doesn’t mean that you never break! Being strong means that even if you break into a million pieces, you still have the courage to pick those pieces up, put them back together, and keep going on.”

― Manprit Kaur

We can keep going. And we will. Together.

Love, Lisa

Blogs I updated this week

Endometriosis & the eyes: added an August 2019 study of a 41-year-old woman with Endometriosis on the outside of her eyelid!

Feel Good Fridays

Message in a bottle
Message in a Bottle Sea” by Antonios Ntoumas

Happy Friday! The end of the week (another one?!)! I hope that you’re all able to have a wonderful and fulfilling weekend.

My husband and I have been attending twice-a-week yoga classes through a local community college, and it’s been great. This past Tuesday, we did our first guided meditation in the class: find yourself in your favorite natural setting. Of course, I was in the mountains, propped on a log sitting in front of a campfire at dusk. Then our instructor threw in a body of water nearby, so I walked toward a lake. Laying on the shores was a bottle with a message inside. I popped open the bottle, pulled out the message, and unfurled it.

It was a message to me, from me.

And it was four words, written in incredible, beautiful calligraphy (which I don’t do, by the way):

“Everything will be okay.”

I took a moment to soak that in, then opened my eyes in the darkened classroom and just let the words wash over me. Everything: finances, my Endo, the colon polyp biopsy, next year’s possible surgery. Everything. Everything will be okay.

It was weird: crying silently in a blackened room with six other people laying down nearby on their respective yoga mats, oblivious to what was going on in my head. I can’t even explain the relief that flooded over my being. I wiped my tears, took a few deep breaths, and closed my eyes.

And that mantra has been something I’ve now whispered to myself every day since.

May it work it’s way into your thoughts today, too.

Much love, Lisa.

Feel Good Fridays!

Welcome to November 1st. There’s only 61 days left in 2019. And I feel like this year has just flown by.

I struggled to find a quote today. Everything I read fell flat in my heart. So, I reached to my co-worker, Shaldon, and asked if he had a favorite inspiring quote. He had shared this one on his Facebook page today…and I loved it…and I borrowed it for our blog.

No, it’s not Shaldon’s sloppy seconds. It’s sharing! And sharing means caring!

Damned if I do, damned if I don't...so damnit I will!

This one goes out to those EndoWarriors who need a cheat day and crave that bite of chocolate ice cream, or that cup o’joe with whipped cream, or those nightshades, or how about some cheeeeeese.

It’s okay to allow yourself a moment of happiness. Some may call it weakness, but I call it happiness. Don’t let the “Endo Diet” dictate your every day. But, do understand, that it may cause you some pain or symptoms to worsen.

Many of us don’t feel any difference following strict meal plans. Follow your heart. Your gut. Your instincts. And listen to your body.

But don’t be afraid to cheat every once in a while.

But the same goes for self-care. DO find time for yourself, to breathe, to meditate, to reflect, to honor your body, to say “no”, to embrace the need to sit back and do nothing but hold your heating pad and cry.

Do whatever you need to do. At this moment. Right now.

I wish I could end our suffering.

Love, Lisa

Feel Good Fridays

Another week has passed. It’s Friday! Already. October is almost over. Do you have any fun fall plans?

Today’s quote brought tears to my eyes and a lump to my throat.

This one is for you who suffer, you who push, you who continue to move forward.

“There’s a remarkable amount of strength residing in those who move forward without being able to physically move. Ones that carry the weight of illness or a disability, they battle wars most know nothing about. They are the true warriors of the world, the ones who have every reason to quit but never do.”

― Nikki Rowe

Whatever the battle or weight you carry, keep fighting. Even if that means staying in bed to recoup, or take a day of rest, or ask friends for help: fight. Always.

Love, Lisa

Blogs I Updated This Week:

Orilissa: AbbVie’s New Drug to Manage Endometriosis Syptoms: Added an Oct. 15, 2019 study by Dr. Brian Ford which discusses the side effects, effectiveness, and pros/cons of the drug.

Blogs I added this week:

My experience with a bowel prep: I’ll be going through another bowel prep in a few weeks and dug of my notes from last year’s prep…nothing like being prepped for a prep!